today, Z reminded me that my thoughts are only thoughts, that they are real but not true. i must learn to be a passive observer, to listen to the voice but not be immediately trusting of it. my mind and self are disconnected right now but that’s okay. it will get better one day.
recently life has been feeling quite empty and meaningless. i feel like george wilson in the valley of ashes. :^( the days are incredibly long and yet there is never enough time to do what i need to do. i feel like my heart has been racing consistently the entirety of this year, a strange fluttery sensation in my chest.
i have been cynical and pessimistic and distrustful of the world (& god). it is a little difficult to be grateful when everything is coming at me so quickly, so forcefully. but i must remember that there is so much to be grateful for, there really is…
a face in the crowd 
!! thanks for the good reminder ><
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❤ i hope youve been doing good ! i will reply to your telegram now HAHA
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