life has been very busy. there are always things to do. everyday there are tasks to complete, checkboxes to tick.
it is physically tiring for sure, but that doesn’t bother me too much. what bothers me is the fact that i am unable to pause and process things when they happen. there are so many thoughts clamouring for attention as i do my homework. so much chatter in my mind as i meet a friend. i’m not quite sure the extent to which i should detach myself from… me.
and there are the feelings that arise within me. i am so quick to dismiss how i feel, to rationalise them away. i am fixated on dulling intense emotions, distracting myself with so-called “coping mechanisms”. but i think, there are things that need to be thought. and things that need to be felt.
i will have to learn how to carve out time for myself, to be attuned to what i need. and maybe….! life will be a little more bearable.
a face in the crowd 