2024! i cower with fear at the thought of the new year. i know it signifies new beginnings, but to me it just reminds me that i have yet another year to struggle through. it’s quite a pessimistic view but it is what it is.
with ‘a’ levels coming up, this year is really going to test my limits. i am not sure if i am ready to handle that kind of stress. i am thrust into icy-cold water.
i know that i can deviate from the path if i need to, but i am still going to try my best to stick to my current plan. i will push myself, but if things start to crumble, i will let myself try something else. it is scary to potentially enter uncharted waters, but if i have to, i will.
i am afraid that sick raeann will resurface (she has been lately) and that everything i’ve painstakingly built for myself will fall apart. but i know that growth often comes in unconventional forms, and there is no way to reverse the growth i’ve gone through. it occurs silently, naturally, slowly.
my main goal this year is to not be afraid to go at my own pace; to be a grow-getter, not a go-getter :o)
a face in the crowd 