ah, valentine’s day. today, i finally made a friend. :^) she is quiet and we are quiet together. it is a comfortable silence. “i had fun today,” she told me, “i’m so glad i have a friend now.” i’m so glad i have a friend too! we high-fived. it’s lonely being alone.
friendships are so strange. how do you make friends? how do you choose who to be friends with? should you force your (introverted, unsociable) self to make friends, or just let things fall into place? i believe that all relationships take effort though, or else they’ll slowly fizzle out and fade away. :< lately i’ve been texting many people first (yes first, haha scary) but it’s been very, very nice… taking the first step makes you vulnerable! dare to be vulnerable.
i think i am secretly a very judgemental person. sometimes a person’s Loudness puts me off and it makes me want to not befriend them. i hope i don’t seem too aloof… i’ve been trying to smile more lately, talk more. it feels unnatural :/// but i will try my bestest to be friendly. it’s getting better.
can’t wait for orientation to end…
a face in the crowd 